desole ou partir (sorry or leave)

DID I????

2009-12-02T14:32:00.004+08:00

I DIDNT REMEMBER ME BEING IN LOVE ONCE AGAIN... I TRIED TO BUT IT IS SO IMPOSSIBLE... I DONT TINK I DID IT ONCE AGAIN CUZ I DIDNT FEEL ANYTHING.. THE ONLY THING TT I FELT WAS JZ FEAR N IT IS SO NOT RITE....

I MANAGE TO GET TO SEC4 N IM IN 1ST PLACING AGAIN... I FELT THE PRESSURE AND IM NOT SURE I COULD STILL GO ON N KEEP IT UP... NEXT YEAR IS MY N LEVELS AND I GOT SOME ART SKETCHES TT I NID TO CMPLETE BFR TE SC REOPENS...

OMG!!!! IM GONNA CATC THE TWILIGHT SAGA NEW MOON TMRW WIF MY BUSY BODY SISTER... AHAHAHA....

Im wat i am...

2009-10-09T13:09:00.002+08:00

i hate dis guy frm my sch.. he kept insulting me n i can't do anything.. i had to cntrol my anger.. i cnt let my emotions tke cntrol of me.. ppl all around me told me to fight bck n it was so tempting. i wanted to give that shit to hym bt i couldnt. smeting hold me bck so tight. i realise tt im no longer 15yrs old. im 17 n growing. i must think positive n never result to violence. i trust myself tt i cn do it. i'll nv lose my faith in myself. smetymes i dun feel lyke gg to sch cuz i felt so discouraging. evryday i attend sch n the sme thing tt i see everyday.. sme old topics fr 3yrs in sec3 sux a lot! oh God!! gif me strength to pull thru all thick n thins..

nthg much to talk bout my family. its normal bt i kinda let my inner tots leak out smetymes. n i regretted it.

frens? i dun hv any bestfrens or cliques. im no longer tt type hu sticks to 1 fren.. mix around is my best of the best choice to widen my sociality. bare in mind, dis is not social studies chptr5 bonding singapore.... hahahaha...

boifii? hmmmm... im nt sure... i kinda nt intrstd in anything lyke it anymre.. i tried to force myself to open my heart bt i cnt.. n i dun undrstnd y i cnt... tts so sick okay!!!

i dunnoe lar

2009-09-04T14:36:00.000+08:00

so boring...
i dunoe wat to do fr my sch vacation..
damn2 boring..
i dunnoe wat colour should i go fr my contct lense..
it will either b blue, grey or brown...
hmmm.... which one eh?

there's dis guy at my tag board..
who is he reali is?
Hahahahaha...
watever lar hor..
make fren onli wat... nothing so special rite?

exam is cming..
dis 15 sep is my english oral...
sux!!!!
dis 29 sep is my english paper...
dammit!!!!

thank God cuz i manage to cmplete my fast...
unlike the past few years..
A SPECIAL THANKS TO MY BELOVED FEVER....
bcz of u, the doctor told me nt to fast n eat the medicine..

2009-07-25T11:22:00.002+08:00

Jealous(Nina)

Jealous of the girl who caught your eyeOne of my darker days
When you looked at her where was I?
Shoulda been in her place
Here I am
All alone imagining what might have been
What could have been
If I had been the one
Jealous of the one who'se arms are around youIf she's keeping you satisfied
Jealous of the one who finally found you
Made your sun and your stars collide
She's a very very lucky girl
Jealous of the one who won your heart
They say it's a perfect match
She's gonna get to be where you are
And it won't get better than that
She'll say you're fine
Whisper words I wish were mine
And they might have been
What could have beenIf I had been there
And you know I'd fight a good fight
If I thought I'd change your mind
But if she makes you happy
Then I'll leave the dream behind
Man, she better treat you right
And give you everything
Cause the moment that she doesn't
I'll be waiting in the wings
La la la la la la la
She's a very very lucky girl

2009-07-19T09:40:00.002+08:00

yesterday, it was a stupid day in my lyfe...
me n my fren, took all the trouble to catch a prformance in a paricular CC but it was too late..
when we reached there, only a group of lion dancers were around...
we searched the whole entitre CC but it was a wasted effort...
we decided to go bck hme...
i cn say tt im a bit disappointed bt maybe its jz nt the rite tyme...
its ok...

i should hv let it go

2009-06-13T11:21:00.003+08:00

these is too much... i cant do these anymre... i cant bare it... i nv want to do dis but im so stubborn... i shouldnt hv strtd it... its no longer mine... its no longer holding so tight... i must hv been too carried away... which i shuldnt... but loneliness kept appearing... which i nid to bare... no zhafirah!!! dun ever think of it... im sure there's a reasn y thinks hd to hppn dis way... i jz nid to figure out my ownself.. everyone is selfish... everyone thinks bout wat they hv n owned... but i must consider it... dis is too much... zhafirah.... dun b lyke dis... jz bcos of smething, dun let it tke control u n ur life... b strong!!! dun slow dwn nw.... u nearly hit it bt pls, dun ever slow dwn... n dun think too much of the main source of the pain... jz let it go.... let it go... smething might b awaiting fr me out there...

2009-06-13T10:05:00.002+08:00

im getting seek and tired of ppl asking me y i didnt find a boyfriend. some ppl ask me whether i dun wanna get married. sme ppl told me to make the first mve lyke hw i did it last tyme. but now, everything is different.

Q: What if one day, one of your ex wants you back?
A: i can't accept any of my ex anymre... things will never b the same like hw it used to b...

Q: What if you still have feelings fr any of ex?
A: even if i still hv tt feelings, i won't let it taking control over my body n mind. i need to bare it n stay focus..

Q: What if one day, some1(a guy) wanna get to knw u?
A: ermmmm... depends if im interested.. so far, only 4 ppl but i dun want to get to knw them.. cuz they r not my type.. i hate slackerz...

Q: What if any1 of ur ex gt a new girl?
A: all of my ex hv new girl already... so, jz accept it.. dun ever hv to keep tt revengeful feelings.. it doesnt bring anything in the end... best wishes fr all of them..

Q: what type of guy would u want to have in future?
A: lovely
understanding
listens to my joys and sorrows
protects me from any harm
stand up fr the rite jz fr me
able to laugh together wif me (once i laugh, i couldnt stop)
responsible
sincere
loyalty
honesty
trust
able to communicate with me
funny (bt not all the tyme ar)

results frm Report Book

2009-06-13T09:54:00.002+08:00

Total: 346.5/600
percentage: 57.8
class position: 1/37
Level position: 18/144
results: passed
L1B2: 11
conduct: excellent
Attendance: 94/96
comments:
Zhafirah is a quiet and responsible student. she is a trustworthy girl who will not hesitate to give a helping hand to her teachers and peers. however, she needs to speak up more in class to convey her opinions. she has done well for her languages and should spent more time on the rest of the subjects as well.

2009-06-13T03:09:00.000+08:00

1) I NEED TO TELL YOU A SECRET (LO0K AT #5)
2) THE ANSWER IS (L0OK AT #11)
3) D0NT GET MAD (L0OK AT #15)
4) CALM DOWN DONT BE PISSED ( L0OK AT #13)
5) FIRST (L0OK AT #2)
6) D0NT BE THAT MAD (L0OK AT #12)
7) I JUST WANTED TO SAY THAT ITS GREAT TO NOE YOU! =))
8) WHAT I WANTED TO TELL YOU IS...(THE ANSWER IS ON #14)
9) BE PATIENT (L0OK AT #4)
10) THIS IS THE LAST TIME IMMA DO THIS (L0OK AT #7)
11) IM NOT MAD WHEN IM SAYIN THIS:( (L0OK AT#6)
12) S0RRY (L0OK AT #8)
13) D0NT BE GETTIN ALL HYPE (L0OK AT #10)
14) I D0NT KNOW HOW TO SAY THIS (L0OK AT #3)
15) YOU MUST BE REALLY PISSED OFF (L0OK AT NUMBER #9)

2009-06-08T02:48:00.000+08:00

is my drawing n painting nice? pls do comment bout it....

2009-06-05T21:48:00.003+08:00

Superwoman

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee has its sugar and cream
Your eggs are over easy, your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss
That use to greet me.
Now you say the juice is sour
It used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder If you're talking 'bout me.
We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurting so deep
I've got my pride I will not cry
But it's making me weak.
I'm not your Superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
As a token of love from you to me.
Ooh, baby... I fought my way through the rush hour
Trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you
But when you get there you just tell me
You're not hungry at all You said you'd rather read the paper
And you don't want to talk
You'd like to think I'm just crazy
When I say that you've changed
I'm convinced I know the problem
You don't love me the same You're just going through the motions
And you're not being fair
I've got my pride I will not cry
Still I can't help but care.
Ooh baby, look into the corners of your mind
I'll always be there for you
Through good and bad times
But I can't be that Superwoman that you want me to be
I'll give my love, oh lasting love
If you'll return love to me
Ah ha, If you feel it in your heart
And you understand me
Stop right where you are
Everybody sing along with me! Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh! Ooh, ooh, ooh, oooooooooooooh! I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you've got to realize that you've got to be sweeter to me,
yeah I need love I need just your love

2009-06-05T21:15:00.003+08:00

zhafirah is always on the right...........

tk sabar2 nk amek gmbr...

alamak... blurr ar...

the posing girls?

the boys..................

danial? wat r u tring to do?

2009-06-05T21:11:00.000+08:00

tts me at the bck.................. getting bck hme frm Sentosa

GET LOST!!!

2009-06-04T19:31:00.002+08:00

ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GET LOST IF YOU DON'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-03T19:01:00.002+08:00

WOW!!!! finally i owned a long hair aftr waiting for like 4years... hahahaha....
well, that pic don't look that well though..
jz to let ppl hu dun recognize me to recognize me finally...
MON DIEU!!!! (OH GOD!!!) -in French

Being a nanny for 2 weeks

2009-06-03T18:30:00.005+08:00

VICTORIA'S SECRET GARDEN PERFUME

DRESS #1

DRESS #2

My mum, grandma n grandpa had gone for Mecca on the 1st of June... its a heartaching process but i managed to control myself anyway... i hold bck the tears that i almost let it run dwn my cheek... My youngger sister cried...

And here i am experimenting with different types of recipes that i know and get dwn to business... Yesteray i cooked spagetthi n hmm.... i think it taste not that bad...

In the evening, i went to my aunt hse and she recommended me with facebook... i signed up n yar... She gave me 2 beautiful kinda dress thing... ( refer to the picture above..) Nice?

She also gave me Victoria's Secret Garden Perfume..(refer to the picture above)

Today, i make cupcakes... it turns out pretty well u know.. i named it Strawberry 3C (Strawberry Chocolate with Chocolate Chip)..

lol!!!!

2009-05-29T21:54:00.002+08:00

he's the guy from BOYS OVER FLOWER...

cute rite!!!!!

aaarrghh

2009-05-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

i lyke himm.. HERO!!!!!! Jae Joong!!!
im crazy for Korean Guys...

2009-05-29T21:51:00.000+08:00

is my drawing nice?

Peacock at Sentosa!!! Wow!!!

2009-05-29T21:46:00.001+08:00

during celebrating ili's birthday at sentosa, i manage to capture a video of khairul chasib=ng a peacock at sentosa beach...

2009-05-29T21:45:00.000+08:00

that picture below is jz a pic of me wif fake eyelashes... hehehe..

mid year exams

2009-05-29T21:20:00.004+08:00

any beauty pagent fr me? i dun think so...

hey.. i finally get first in class for my mid year exams.. keep it up zhafirah... i passed all of my exams xcept fr my cmbine humanities (history & social Studies).... i really felt the emotions wen i received gd cmments frm the teachers. i could feel the adrenaline... i really had tat blood rushing dwn my bloodstream s i read my report bk.. it was a great sign of turnover... i dun wanna get bck to the life i hd once lead.. it sux...

life being sgl is great.. i dun hv to go thru all the pains that causes me to suffer in silence.. having a relationship nw is jz not the rite tyme for me.. im only looking for friendship in every human beings... i jz realize tt i cn do it if i really hold onto it n strive fr it.. nothing cn stop me xcept God...

holiday is cming up n me n shafina, shafiqa n nadia tot of watching HORROR DVDs in one of our houses... m guy cuzzie wantd to sleep ovr at my hse n we gt to cook our own meals... YEAH!!! my bro is gg to NS soon around August... he's under Combat... haha!!!! best of luck bro!!!

our MT teacher now is Mr Isyak/Ishak/Isyaq/Ishaq? hahahaha.....

art class is so boring since aftr the exams.. we watched Kung Fu Panda, all the PIXAR animation films, Cars n Over The Hedge.. Boring isn't it? hahahaha....

i got cough nw... dun gt me wrong okay.. im cnfidnt that im nt relatd to that disease...

hahaha...

i jz felt lyke laughing wen i think bck the tymes wen im being too naughty n rebellious.. i regret fr making my parents sad about my attitude last tyme...

your sweetheart,

khairatuz zhafirah a.k.a Kyra

something wrong....

2009-05-06T15:19:00.000+08:00

oh shit!!!!
there's smething wrong with the music....
i dunknw y it only last fr 30secs....
dammit!!!!

HE IS SO COOL...

2009-05-02T23:01:00.001+08:00

i jz cant resist dis....

lyke real only..

my hero

2009-05-02T22:57:00.000+08:00

he is my hero!!!!!

get a lyfe firah!!!!

terrible headache

2009-05-02T20:59:00.002+08:00

tdae, i went to my grandma hse... shooot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i missed tt JUST MY LUCK blockbuster movie.... i hate it.. bt atleast i knw tt i cn still watch LAKE HOUSE.... ooopsss.... i hd mke the printer spoiled!!! OMG!!! wat m i suppose to do? must i tel my mum? oh God!!!!!
i gt a bad headache tdae... wat to do? tts hw a high blood pressure person needs to go thru...

Edward Cullen

2009-04-30T15:13:00.005+08:00

tdae im at Nadia's house... for the first tyme in my lyfe, im watching TWILIGHT.... i knw i had promised myslf nv to watch Twilight cuz of sme personal reasns aftr my break up... hahaha... bt hey!!!!!!!!! ROBERT PATTINSON is damn HOT!!!!!!!!! and that Edward thing tt he played, OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he's damn cool... i wish i had tt kind of guy hu protects me and defend me frm evrything... hey.... i think gels on a guy's hair is fine... bt dun apply it too much cuz it looks like.......................................... hahaha.... n i jz realise tt i dun reali go fr guys hu wears specs...

btw, i lyke the line wen edward cullen says:
"im sorry i didnt hv the chance to introduce myslf last week...."
its so damn funny!!!!!!!!!! and so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want that kinda guy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
aarrgghh.....
hopefully i gt one in the future... :)

scene after a plane crash

2009-04-30T14:19:00.002+08:00

today, i took my malay language paper and it was okay... but yesterdy was my worst nitemare ive ever had.. my composition was out of point!!! damn it.. the question told me to describe a scene aftr a plane crash but i was too bz with my own world composing a story about a bunch of cannibal chasing after me in an island where the plane actually crash... stupid rite? for goodness sake!!!

2009-03-14T11:27:00.002+08:00

Arrgghh !! She's so irritating. Asking me so many question... can she just ask someone beside her ? Irritating !!

I think im in crush with someone... but i know that feeling wont last long. C'mon lah... im a big gurl & i knw hw to differentiate btwn love & crush. I told him that i wont b messaging hym... he always wanting to embarrass me with his obvious questions (e.g "y do you like to msg me ?")

Today, i got Chemistry and Social Studies tests. But damn it ! I didnt study for it...

There's this guy in my class, i name him as 'M'... he's acting retard in my class... all he do is to b as foolish as possible... but honestly & frankly, he's so funny... he got that Jim Carey looks...

Ha ! Ha ! Ha ! Btw, i hate the new counsellor... so ridiculous... we've been sitting & eating @ the staircase for almost a year & out of the sudden, they chase us from that place... WTH !!! I HATE HER !! I DONT LIKE HER !! SO BOSSY !! She got no potential... always walk around with the hidious face and pathetic walkie-talkie... i break your spectacles then u knw (like real only)... Eee... i disagree on having her as our new counsellor !!! What to do ? My Social Studies teacher told us that Singaporeans must 'Anticipate Change and Stay Relevant'. Does that got to do with that COUNSELLOR !!!

Your switheat
Khairatuz Zhafirah a.k.a Kyra

2009-02-13T18:16:00.003+08:00

nothing much to say.. i recieved two valentine's day gift.. sweets and chocolate.. wuuhuu.. omg! its friday the thirteen n i didn't relise it.. u know wat? i hate my fucking class.. at the first place, my CD JOURNAL was under my table in the morning.. when i return to class after my MT, my CD JOurnal lost.. i dun knw who stole it.. but whoever u are, u r such a pain to my ass.. i dun care whether u r a son of a bitch or a bitch.. you are equally the same..

as for my friendship, it seems lyke till now i dunknw who.. i dun feel lyke being too devoted wif this girl.. she's making complicated sometymes.. but wat is important for me nw is jz my family, studies and myself..

guess wat? my form teacher told me that the new student in my class is planning to either quit or transfr school.. i wonder y?

dis monday (16.02.2009) is my birthday.. im turning 17yrs old!! YEAH!!

finally i m growing up..
the more i grow, the nearer to success n freedoms..

i guess my friends are not celebrating it with me.. a bit of disppointing but hey, i understand.. its ok.. its not as if i'll die wifout celebrating my bdae wif my friends..

2009-02-05T08:07:00.002+08:00

i felt lyke running away from Physical Education Class.. Im always the last one to cme bck frm the morning run and im so embarrased. I WANT TO RUN AWAY!!! Arrgghh... i guess tdae will b the most boring day.. tml i gt NPCC.. I dun feel kike attending it.. so boring.. Next week, i got promotion test for my NPCC..

im getting there sweetie(referring to nobody)...

2009-02-04T19:38:00.002+08:00

Wat in the hell is my class doing ?

There's a bunch of guys kissing each other. Are they officially gays ? Haha. Lol !!! Yes ! Finally i got the student handbook. Im gonna organize myself. No more slacking like a pig... I love my peeps. I don't nid a boy to complete my life. I still can survive without it. It's just not the rite tyme to be comitted (i guess so)...

In class, my english teacher decided us to plan a speech for Draft 1 (it's about public display of affection). My chemistry class turns out to be sexuality education. So do CME class. That new kid in my class didn't turn up today again. And i enjoy being alone at my class... wuuhuu !!!

I got bad hair day today & my room is in a mess... can't i find a fine day to clean up my room ?

Hey !! I nid to come clean here.. Buek !!! :P

Btw, there's dis kid in my class/school (i won't tell you whether it's in my class or school) look the same as my 4th ex (the recent relationship I THINK I HAD)... Hey !! Im not into BGR for now... im not interested. But hey ! How about friends or BFF ? That's wat i have now...

Keep it real...
:)

2009-02-03T17:20:00.001+08:00

2009-02-03T17:07:00.000+08:00

tdae, i got nothing much to say.. there's dis new kid in my class.. She didnt turn up tdae and i was quite relieve u know.. i dun feel any space to breathe wen she is wif me.. and there's dis kid in my History class.. she really pissed me and my fren off.. I DIDN'T ASK FAR YOUR ****** COMMENTS!!! I DON'T NID YOUR ******* COMMENTS TOO!!!

Im so lucky...
Im a star...
;)

2009-02-03T16:33:00.000+08:00

Today, im ok.. nothing much to say.. That new kid in my class didnt turn up tdae and im quite happy for it.. i dun feel the space to breathe wen she's around.. ouh yar!! there's this 2kid in my History class really pissed me and my fren off.. U DON'T NID TO GIF SUCH ****** COMMENTS OKAY!! i didn't ask ur comments and pls shut ur ******* mouth..