Wednesday, December 2, 2009
DID I????
I DIDNT REMEMBER ME BEING IN LOVE ONCE AGAIN... I TRIED TO BUT IT IS SO IMPOSSIBLE... I DONT TINK I DID IT ONCE AGAIN CUZ I DIDNT FEEL ANYTHING.. THE ONLY THING TT I FELT WAS JZ FEAR N IT IS SO NOT RITE.... I MANAGE TO GET TO SEC4 N IM IN 1ST PLACING AGAIN... I FELT THE PRESSURE AND IM NOT SURE I COULD STILL GO ON N KEEP IT UP... NEXT YEAR IS MY N LEVELS AND I GOT SOME ART SKETCHES TT I NID TO CMPLETE BFR TE SC REOPENS...OMG!!!! IM GONNA CATC THE TWILIGHT SAGA NEW MOON TMRW WIF MY BUSY BODY SISTER... AHAHAHA....
Wrote off @ Wednesday, December 02, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
Im wat i am...
i hate dis guy frm my sch.. he kept insulting me n i can't do anything.. i had to cntrol my anger.. i cnt let my emotions tke cntrol of me.. ppl all around me told me to fight bck n it was so tempting. i wanted to give that shit to hym bt i couldnt. smeting hold me bck so tight. i realise tt im no longer 15yrs old. im 17 n growing. i must think positive n never result to violence. i trust myself tt i cn do it. i'll nv lose my faith in myself. smetymes i dun feel lyke gg to sch cuz i felt so discouraging. evryday i attend sch n the sme thing tt i see everyday.. sme old topics fr 3yrs in sec3 sux a lot! oh God!! gif me strength to pull thru all thick n thins..nthg much to talk bout my family. its normal bt i kinda let my inner tots leak out smetymes. n i regretted it.frens? i dun hv any bestfrens or cliques. im no longer tt type hu sticks to 1 fren.. mix around is my best of the best choice to widen my sociality. bare in mind, dis is not social studies chptr5 bonding singapore.... hahahaha...boifii? hmmmm... im nt sure... i kinda nt intrstd in anything lyke it anymre.. i tried to force myself to open my heart bt i cnt.. n i dun undrstnd y i cnt... tts so sick okay!!!
Wrote off @ Friday, October 09, 2009
Friday, September 4, 2009
i dunnoe lar
so boring...
i dunoe wat to do fr my sch vacation..
damn2 boring..
i dunnoe wat colour should i go fr my contct lense..
it will either b blue, grey or brown...
hmmm.... which one eh?
there's dis guy at my tag board..
who is he reali is?
Hahahahaha...
watever lar hor..
make fren onli wat... nothing so special rite?
exam is cming..
dis 15 sep is my english oral...
sux!!!!
dis 29 sep is my english paper...
dammit!!!!
thank God cuz i manage to cmplete my fast...
unlike the past few years..
A SPECIAL THANKS TO MY BELOVED FEVER....
bcz of u, the doctor told me nt to fast n eat the medicine..
Wrote off @ Friday, September 04, 2009
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Jealous(Nina)Jealous of the girl who caught your eyeOne of my darker days
When you looked at her where was I?
Shoulda been in her place
Here I am
All alone imagining what might have been
What could have been
If I had been the one
Jealous of the one who'se arms are around youIf she's keeping you satisfied
Jealous of the one who finally found you
Made your sun and your stars collide
She's a very very lucky girl
Jealous of the one who won your heart
They say it's a perfect match
She's gonna get to be where you are
And it won't get better than that
She'll say you're fine
Whisper words I wish were mine
And they might have been
What could have beenIf I had been there
And you know I'd fight a good fight
If I thought I'd change your mind
But if she makes you happy
Then I'll leave the dream behind
Man, she better treat you right
And give you everything
Cause the moment that she doesn't
I'll be waiting in the wings
La la la la la la la
She's a very very lucky girl
Wrote off @ Saturday, July 25, 2009
Sunday, July 19, 2009
yesterday, it was a stupid day in my lyfe...
me n my fren, took all the trouble to catch a prformance in a paricular CC but it was too late..
when we reached there, only a group of lion dancers were around...
we searched the whole entitre CC but it was a wasted effort...
we decided to go bck hme...
i cn say tt im a bit disappointed bt maybe its jz nt the rite tyme...
its ok...
Wrote off @ Sunday, July 19, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
i should hv let it go
these is too much... i cant do these anymre... i cant bare it... i nv want to do dis but im so stubborn... i shouldnt hv strtd it... its no longer mine... its no longer holding so tight... i must hv been too carried away... which i shuldnt... but loneliness kept appearing... which i nid to bare... no zhafirah!!! dun ever think of it... im sure there's a reasn y thinks hd to hppn dis way... i jz nid to figure out my ownself.. everyone is selfish... everyone thinks bout wat they hv n owned... but i must consider it... dis is too much... zhafirah.... dun b lyke dis... jz bcos of smething, dun let it tke control u n ur life... b strong!!! dun slow dwn nw.... u nearly hit it bt pls, dun ever slow dwn... n dun think too much of the main source of the pain... jz let it go.... let it go... smething might b awaiting fr me out there...
Wrote off @ Saturday, June 13, 2009
im getting seek and tired of ppl asking me y i didnt find a boyfriend. some ppl ask me whether i dun wanna get married. sme ppl told me to make the first mve lyke hw i did it last tyme. but now, everything is different.Q: What if one day, one of your ex wants you back?A: i can't accept any of my ex anymre... things will never b the same like hw it used to b...Q: What if you still have feelings fr any of ex?A: even if i still hv tt feelings, i won't let it taking control over my body n mind. i need to bare it n stay focus..Q: What if one day, some1(a guy) wanna get to knw u?A: ermmmm... depends if im interested.. so far, only 4 ppl but i dun want to get to knw them.. cuz they r not my type.. i hate slackerz...Q: What if any1 of ur ex gt a new girl?A: all of my ex hv new girl already... so, jz accept it.. dun ever hv to keep tt revengeful feelings.. it doesnt bring anything in the end... best wishes fr all of them..Q: what type of guy would u want to have in future?A: lovelyunderstandinglistens to my joys and sorrowsprotects me from any harmstand up fr the rite jz fr meable to laugh together wif me (once i laugh, i couldnt stop)responsiblesincereloyaltyhonestytrustable to communicate with mefunny (bt not all the tyme ar)
Wrote off @ Saturday, June 13, 2009
